That I Would Be Good-Alanis Morissette

這首歌收錄在98年的專輯Supposed Former Infatuation Junkie。22日凌晨聽這首That I Would Be Good，多久沒聽到Alanis的聲音？！太久沒有發洩情緒，一時情緒太滿，接受太多令人感到心痛煎熬的資訊，跟著觸發了什麼，眼淚也就不斷地落下，完成了許久以來的發洩。

我現在可以說：這首歌，是我最喜歡的歌！終於有了自己最喜歡的歌，即使不是U2的With or without You，也不是Jesus and Mary Chain的Just like Honey，或是Nirvana的All Apologies。我最喜歡的歌詞是這句：That I would be good even if I lost sanity.

談論「最喜歡」的事情總是很令人興奮，記得國小畢業前，每人手上都總有一本自己的畢業紀念冊，請好友帶回家好好地寫下關於自己的事，總有那麼一長串的「最喜歡」，而通常「最喜歡的人」是擺在最後才寫，更是大家最感興趣的一個。現在回想起來，好像看的東西越多，就越不容易找到那「最喜歡」的什麼，不過如果一旦找到了，掌握住了，似乎就能使我們感覺更容易抓住什麼東西。世界太大了，如果沒有這樣限縮一些東西，恐怕就太過寬廣了，大得令人喘不過氣。

That I would be good even if I did nothing
That I would be good even if I got the thumbs down
That I would be good if I got and stayed sick
That I would be good even if I gained ten pounds

That I would be fine even if I went bankrupt
That I would be good if I lost my hair and my youth
That I would be great if I was no longer queen
That I would be grand if I was not all knowing

That I would be loved even when I numb myself
That I would be good even when I am overwhelmed
That I would be loved even when I was fuming
That I would be good even if I was clinging

That I would be good even if I lost sanity
That I would be good whether with or without you